Pushing and flowing

Things will be shifting and changing here at Dive 3 Studio.  When I started, I was focused on creating a place where people could reignite their creativity, and use the arts for healing and self discovery.  

I still want to do that, but something wasn't quite right. Since I first discovered expressive arts therapy, I've been inspired by it. I felt safe and good in the expressive arts world. It is a healing place, and I cannot even begin to tell you the transformation I've experienced using it.  

But I felt conflicted about using it professionally. It doesn't fit in a K-12 classroom. And my attempts to teach workshops in my community fell flat. I wanted to be someone who could facilitate healing for others, but the fact of the matter is, that is not my greatest strength. Neither is teaching.

I find that in my own creative journey, I tip toe anxiously, like someone has suddenly shut the lights off and I am trying to find my way out. I take a cautious sliding step into my own creative journey, and then immediately turn around and share it, talk about it, and encourage others to join me and try it out. Because I don't want to be alone.

I'm going to try something else for a while. I'm going to try to use this blog as a sort of travelogue, and treat my own creative journey as an adventure - and I am the journalist. 

Part of this new challenge is that I am going to be showing my work more. I've always avoided showing and selling my work, but it feels right now.  

As soon as I made the decision to shift my focus, it suddenly felt like all the pushing I had been doing fell away, and in its place is the flow that I've been looking for. If my creative process is like a dark room, I know see a sliver of light under the door, lighting my path just enough so I can walk confidently.