When I did my masters research, I kept a visual journal, and I really gained a lot from the arts-based research I did in terms of personal empowerment and transformation.
I decided to apply the same process, mixing expressive arts with studio art practices to heal my attitude towards self care, as I described in my last post. And I had a brand new, clean sketchbook from Kunst & Papier to use for this entire journey.
Last night, I broke through two ickies: 1) brand new journal perfectionism and 2) video taping while working. I really want to teach. I so believe in the arts for personal transformation, but I feel very shy about it all, jealous of other teachers out there already doing what I want to do.
I also feel scared, because there is no way this journey is not going to get into some areas that are hard. This isn't just about cutting back on caffeine or making it to the gym. This will inevitably go deeper than that, and I will be making decisions about how much to share.
That decision will be deeply influenced by the response I get from others. I'm not so worried about assholes saying shit. Bring it.
I fear awkward silence and invisibility. I'm reaching out to you by sharing this journey. I invite you to join me, either by posting links to your own blogs, here, or on any of my social media locations. If you want to share but not with the world, there is a private facebook group.